Jealous For Me

19 05 2010

One night at community group my friend Sara was leading worship and she said something about how lucky we are to have a God that is jealous for us.

Jealousy can be such an ugly thing in relationships. But the word jealousy doesn’t have to mean what we think it means. Jealousy comes from the Greek word ζήλος (zēlos),  and has meaning in a positive sense too. It means “emulation, ardour, zeal” or even “full of zeal”.  Zeal means “a feeling of strong eagerness” or “Passionate ardor in the pursuit of anything”.

Wow. Ok grammar lesson done. Back to the meat.

At this moment in my life I am so very humbled and grateful to know that anyone, let alone my savior , my Father, my All in All feels eagerness for me.  God has zeal for me, he longs for me to be close and is in passionate pursuit of my relationship with him. I don’t think any boyfriend has every truly felt that way about me. But God does.

He is eager to draw me away from pain, heartache and the loneliness I may feel as a single girl. Sometimes those feelings are so overwhelming it consumes me. But only when I forget the truths God has placed in my heart.

Am I worthy of such ardor? Are any of us? Probably not. But thankfully He thinks we are.

Someone sent me this prayer as part of an email and I thought it was really awesomesauce. Simple and perfect for those days we might feel more single than others.

Father God, sometimes my sense of loneliness is a dull ache, other days it threatens to engulf me and I feel like I can hardly breathe.  Today Lord, I choose to climb in Your lap and lean against Your heart and find comfort in You.Thank you for being jealous for me Lord. I praise you in Jesus’ Name, Amen.

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Put me in Coach

16 05 2010

My blog used to be about the clever and funny things my boyfriend Brian said. It can’t really be about that anymore because I don’t have a boyfriend named Brian. Turns out, he didn’t want to marry me either.

So a new direction is needed. While eating my heartaches worth of Graeters Black Raspberry Chip in a waffle cone with sprinkles today, the topic came up that there is a serious lack of singles ministry available in our church community.

So I came home and really thought and prayed about it. I took a bubble bath and thought about it. So I sat down and opened my study bible and began looking for references and guidance. And then I prayed some more. And cried. Well that’s putting it pretty lightly. I had a soul cleansing/wrenching sort of cry.

Here’s what I got smacked with though. I am not the only single lonely person at my church. And my church’s motto is everyone gets to play. Well guess what? I’m ready.

I got up from my knees and immediately this plan started to unfold.

It’s going to start here with verses and inspirations and book suggestions. Along with probable thoughts on the whole idea of being a Christian single in this secular polluted environment.

Todays verse (worth saying outloud trust me. seriously don’t be scared, say it outloud.) taken from the NIV version

Psalm 138 7-8

“Though I walk in the midst of trouble, you preserve my life; you stretch out your hand against the anger of my foes, with your right hand you save me. The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your love, O Lord endures forever- do not abandon the works of your hands.”